You guys, we did it! Last round of chemo! And it came with a pleasant surprise. Because my neuropathy is so bad, I got to skip my chemo drip all together this last round. I still had my take-home chemo but less is good! Ha, silver linings! So next steps: I have a CT scan and MRI scheduled for October 10th. Why wait so long before scans? I’m glad you asked. Two main reasons. 1. It allows the chemo in my body to continue to attack the cancer cells. And 2. The delay gives my body time to heal and be less inflamed for the scans. I will then meet with my oncologist and surgeon on October 14 to figure out next steps: observation or surgery. After all this, then we will schedule a time to get my port out of my chest but not until after surgery (or whatever is next). Is surgery a guarantee? I don’t know. It will depend on how my scans look and the recommendation of my surgeon. But this “I don’t know” has been a common statement with my cancer journey. It has been a challenge for me because I’m a planner; I like things figured out. And if things aren’t figured out, I am working to figure them out. I like to know if I work X hard, I will earn Y. But that is not how things have gone. If I’m being honest, this point of not knowing has been the hardest and also normally when I notice my emotions start spiraling: not knowing timing of scans, not knowing if I will have surgery, not knowing how long side effects from treatment will last, not knowing when I should go back to full-time work, not knowing what job I may go back to full-time, not knowing when the right house may come on the market for us. And on and on it goes. Time to take a step back. Take a deep breath. Sometimes, I need to be kinder to myself. I just finished chemotherapy. I already finished radiation. I am doing the hard things. So as much as I dislike it, I am going to continue to sit in the many unknowns of what is coming. Silver lining though, I am much further in this journey and the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter!