It’s Sunday and I am still in the hospital. 4 blood transfusions, 2 bouts of radiation, 1 iron infusion, 1 flex sigmoidoscopy, blood pressure medication and the start of my chemo pills. So here we go into the storm.

I have always been a do-er. I feel guilty sitting or resting (except if I am in a good book). I have been working on allowing myself time/ moments of rest throughout my day (it’s a slooow process). Because when a problem arises, my method is normally to work harder to get through it. What can’t be solved with more hard work? Well, turns out, a lot of things. 

CrossFit is one of my passions. There is always something to improve: pull-ups, squat weight, run faster… nah. Not run faster. I’m more like a social CrossFitter now and one of the OG’s of CrossFit is Rich Froning. Somewhere on one of his websites, I read when a storm is coming, bison don’t avoid the storm but go into the storm because it is faster and safer. Not sure radiation and chemotherapy will go faster or if it will be safer as I head into my cancer storm. Instead, I’m trying to embrace this season of life one day at a time. By putting my head down and turning into the storm doesn’t have to be an all out boxing battle every single day. Realistically, your body cannot always be in that fight mode. It’s exhausting and you will do more harm to your body than good. So accepting this next stage looks different for me: meditation, EFT tapping, enjoying exercise, and being more aware of my mindset. The power of the mind is amazing and learning tools to help keep my mind at peace with my crappy situation is my goal. Beating cancer is much more than just radiation and chemotherapy. So as I am in this storm, I embrace this journey in all its facets: the calm to know when to fight and when to find peace within the storm.

Liz